I haven’t been posting much this week because it proved to be a hard week for me in general. I probably should have been taking those experiences and documenting them here but I try to find a nice balance of being candid without getting into private matters. Unfortunately my alternative of bottling things up didn’t go over very well either.
Overall my issue is simple. I am trying to save money, so I’m cutting down my spending. I also happen to have a lot of time on my hands that I have to fill without spending money. The thought process seems simple, but it’s been a vicious cycle for me this week. Weather in Nova Scotia is warming up and a lot of the days are beautiful, but still too cold to enjoy properly. I’m a girl who gets cabin fever if I don’t leave the house at some point in the day, and it gets INFINATLY worse when it’s sunny. While I’ve got a thousand things I could do inside, all I really want is to go outside, which in this town means spending money.
My boyfriend has been out of country working long hours with unreliable internet connection and most of my friends have significant others they’re spending time with. I’ve never been incredible at keeping busy on my own, despite that all my hobbies are one player hobbies. I’ve been trying to find new things to pass the time, but never seem to get anywhere.
I know this is a post chalk full of whining and complaining, but right now I feel like whining. I need to get my head out of my ass and think positively. I hate putting limitations on myself, but if I don’t I’ll have wasted a ton of money on things I don’t actually need. I’m proud of my efforts to do better with my money but I’m less proud of the lack of grace I’m showing while doing it. I really just need to man up and find more productive uses of my time.